No, that’s not our Lenten theme this year, although it would rawk. But our fave season does begin one week from today. We’ll do three worships here at Emmanuel at 7:30 am, noon and 7:30 pm. 7 am seemed a bit too early last year, and we used to get big crowds for 7:30 pm as opposed to 7 pm. So there it is, now you know how we choose the times for these services.
Two current events seem to feed into what I’m thinking of for Ash Wednesday. Last night’s Frontline episode on WBUR (public television) was entitled “Inside the Meltdown”. It was as riveting as “Frost/Nixon” was; crackling with the drama that we are all watching unfold daily. But some of us are being honestly affected by these things. To that degree, it’s systemic.
When Bear Stearns collapsed last spring, and Lehman Bros. followed in September, the fear was for systemic risk. If one of these banks failed, how interconnected were they so that their failure would cause other failures here in the US and around the world? The failure of these investment banks is one of the big reasons that all the credit has dried up. It’s cause-and-effect, or systemic. In a system, there are multiple players: the leaders, the ones in charge, and those who work for the system deliberately. There are others who participate unknowingly or circumstantially. I would include myself in that group, even though I didn’t take out a bad mortgage or overextend myself in the housing market. I have, however, lived outside my means. So I am not guilt-free. I am part of that system.
Biblically, sin spread from Adam and Even to Cain and Abel, and by the time we get to Noah, it had become a systemic risk: something in which everyone took a part. No one was guilt-free, not even Noah. Now listen, I am not equating the current global economic crisis to the great flood, but I am saying that we reap what we sow. If we are part of a system that runs counter to what God intends (for example, greed and avarice instead of sharing and communal thinking), it eventually catches up with us. All of us. We’re all swept up in it. It’s like Mrs. Weeks, my old Catholic school teacher who always felt it necessary to punish the whole class for what Mike Crandall did.
One of my favorite lyrics comes from Social Distortion frontman Mike Ness: ‘we’re not punished for our sins, but by them.’ I don’t think God is up there watching CNBC and saying that we deserve all this. Rather, it’s up to us to live in a way that supports all of us, and nuture a system that’s not based on unlimited wealth or unlimited prosperity or unlimited consumption.
The other issue that’s on my mind is Alex Rodriguez. For such an unlikeable guy, I like him. I don’t know why, but I always have had a soft spot for him. So imagine my disappointment, not that he did steroids, but that he has made such a meal of this apology and defense. I can tell you what goes into my body throughout the course of a day: some cereal, some tea, maybe some animal crackers. An elite athlete should know EVERYTHING that goes into his or her body. Don’t expect me to believe that his cousin just said “hey, this’ll give you some ‘energy’!” and Alex said “sure” without asking what it was. Imagine that, someone says to you ‘hey, you look like you could use a lift.’ “OK, what are you thinking of?” and you’re thinking of a Coke or a cappucino, and they bring out a syringe. Young and stupid, indeed.
But to me, the art of the apology is lost in all this, as it has been in our society. Instead of being sorry that he injected himself with banned substances, he’s really sorry that he got caught. Even so, once you’re caught, you’ve got to come as clean as you can. Lay it all on the table. Don’t let anyone find anything else out. Go over the top. Apologize for causing the economic meltdown. Apologize for having weird eyes. A good example of this is Psalm 51, which we read on Ash Wednesday. David apologizes for himself, for being a sinful person, for being part of the system of sin. But he never absolves himself as an individual. He does both, going over the top when he didn’t need to.
And why do we need to apologize? Is it for our public perception? I know the times I’ve had to apologize to people as a priest have mostly been to repair a relationship. But that breach of trust, that hurt is always still there. And I can’t control what the other person thinks, or says, or feels. So all I can do is let my apology be my own forgiveness, soothing the hurt that I have caused myself.


